On the date of 28th Feb

Today is indeed the third day of cold war...I feel very dismayed..ealy in the morning,i taken my driving lesson conducted by my mum earlier in the morning..mostly its was conducted by my dad..however due to that cold war...i really feel disappointed!!I admit that I was quite failure in my STPM...i guessed..BUT WHY??
WHY my daddy cant understand me....I really lost!!hell....

ON TH DATE of 27 th Of February.

Oh God it was a hot day again..The sun was shining mercilessly..and beads of sweat could be seen dripping down incessantly forming rivulets around my cheeks.Why am I that hot?I was walking from far to my lovely institution..re2...
whats tat?
its my new institution of computer courses..
i luv tat place..
however..since i jz got my results lately..
i feel abit scared..y?
because i afraid being keep on asking by the students or teachers on my sucks results.
luckily..
not much ppl knows im a form 6 school leaver.I am a bit disappointed till dunno whether got face to see ppl..

ON TH DATE of 26th Of February

I was unhappy due to the results I got...Luckily I had few friends to share with me...Oh thanks to them..really happy and glad that I have these friends with me..THEY were sze kah soon,ming fei,erica,khai sin,bao ling,jing yi,phooi sian,jih yen,sze ern,courney,maggie,melvyn and grace..

Really glad to have them as my friends..I will remember till my last breath will be taken by the Lord!!haha...
Am I thinking something stupid??Of come on,of course that's not the way...erm..I may be very negative person..but IT just too stupid to commit suicide as I 'll be like...abandoned all my friends and my understanding queen...haha...its happy to say that at the end..

Was that all?well,thinking of my results still very bad..I will get the thought of being negative again.at the same time thinking of my ferocious king,I'll tremble like a leaf..IF u asked me why,I also don't know why..haha..
perhaps I am really afraid of him..

ON TH DATE of 25th Of February..2nd part...

AROUND 1PM...I finally got my results...what would it be?
would it become bettef?would it be the want in my dream?would it be accepted by me and my parents?
all these thoughts flashed through my mind...like an animation scene popping in front of me..
well...all this would finally be answered once I open the result slip....
wat!!!??!!i got this?!...this was even...even..WORST?! that time I was totally down to no where already..
however...I was glad to notice that my parent came consoled me...and I was thinking that they finally had changed...they said what to do,you had done your best already...I was softened by this comment from them...after that I went to gather with few of my friends..em..the most happiest moment for that day was to sing k in the k box with group of girls..and of cuz the best was to thank a GIRL NAMED erica..her singing was nice and i was really happy that time singing with her and her frens...all of them I knew..however this happy moment was not last that long...everything then changed...

AROUND EVENING...
parent started to ask many superb question...I would say that its like playing the mind games with me..erm..I myself also cant really replied them well..
as a result this may be the start of my misery life...
I guess it was that way..
erm...I was not in good condition....then I was being asked a lot of questions as followed:why cant you get better result?see,I told you to come back home after school..you just refused to..see that why your are not listening to us!!and you are really bring nothing to this family...yup...thats what I really refused to do...why?
since I entered form6 I was quite hardworking at first...then perhaps once I was stressed out,I totally had a tough time in my academics...I hope to make use every little time I got...Know why?but al this i merely kept in my heart..

I some sought like getting a bad health condition..Thats I tend to be very sleepy easily.I was at first requested the king and queen to bring me to seek treatment but it was seemed that I was just overworked..
I felt myself slept too much so I refused to back home after school..
more over at home I cant do my homework well...since at school I can asked the teacher..right?
however I was blamed for that..
even now my body sometimes also feel that sleepy inside me..however..surprisingly is that if I am doing whatever things that I am interested in,I wont feel it..
I guess since beginning I had already had phobia to studies ever since I always obtained poor or not satisfied results for the real government test..As a result I think no matter how hard I try to study,There's a barrier over me..I really hope the queen and king in my palace will trully understand me for one fine day..


Conclusion:I was not in a good condition since exam reults announced!

ON TH DATE of 25th Of February..1st part...

TODAY..nothing special...I was just worrying about the outcomes of the results I would get tomorrow...well..guess you all khnow what's that result will be right?
It was the crucial STPM results..OH my gosh...I dare not to think...honestly I was thinking to get the worst result would be 2b2c..for me thats bad already..Its time to leave to go to bed..
hopefully everything went smoothly...time is around 12:50am

NO!IT COULDNT BE!!! suddenly I was uddenly awaken by my nightmare!!jz few minutes ago from now...6:30am...what I was dreaming was a bad symptoms...well...i dreamed that my result was merely 1b2c and 1d...I AM SWEATING NOW...so worrying and eerie type of feeling..I was shocked for that...and I was like numbed for particular moment...oh lord buddha!dun give me that results k?I hope it was just a dream...

ON THE DATE of 23rd of February

I was woke up quite early this morning as I was not having a good sleep yesterday night..well..I guess it was due to the problem that I was facing and once again I decide to give it a try to recover my files back again...




However,nothing can I be done..how sad it was...As a result I decided to draw something to enable myself to express my feelings of dismay and disappointing..After all it was all due to that msg..and as I hope to find some friend to chat..SurPriSinGly I saw HER-my friend...!!I told her what she sent me...?then her response was..I didnt send anything to you..and I repeat the msg that I had received..erm..She said...she wont online at that moment..then I was totally taken aback by what she had said...OH MY GOD!!that's bad....what the hell was that...finally only I realised it was afterall just a prank and it was indeed a virus that tricked me..!!What was all these about?!I was stupid to believe that it was sent by her...WHY am I that stupid?!OH SHIT!!these were all my thoughts at that moment...I took it as an experience of not to simply explore weird links...But the price wasnt too big for me???haih...



once again I was down again...

ON THE DATE OF 22nd Of February

Today, I was considered bad luck..Why should I say so..?
Well, as I was suffing the internet to do some research on studies while downloading some anime series,i saw something pop out on the screen of my laptop..I was curious that it was a msg of the MSN from my Friend and...what a surprised was she was sending me a photo...but the link was a bit weird..however..I was too naif to believe that the photo was really sending by her and I try to open it..horror of horrors..i cant open it..and my Avira anti virus system stated that it consisted suspicious virus..in order to open that file,i finally chosen the method to disable my protection..STUPID rite?I was totally unaware..However..no matter ho I tried,I was totally cant open it at all..and decided to give up..

Climax was that I was rechecked my folders and I decided to them up a bit for those that I no longer was in used...like games or software..then I was going to uninstall one programme..But!..as I was uninstalling that,I saw many unrelated files was connected to that process of uninstalling..and I quickly stop that..Did I manage to stop that?NO!!! I faced big problem this time..I lost my precious anime series of code geass,skip beat,k on, kimini todoke,shonen omnyoji...Is that all?Unfortunately was a no once again!!I also lost all my files on the desktop and all that included my folders of assignments of computer courses that i had gone through..What did all this mean?
I lost all my files!I was once again down and trying to search those programmes on back up files as what were recommended by my caring friend(courney)thanks to her really..then I try to do as what I ' ve been told..but I was in vain..cause all those programmes were mainly trial version and I was not affordable to buy the genuine ones...

First sad day of this week..